2 weeks ago, I was required to write an essay based on personal recount. I had been trying to recall a recount that I could write easily. However, eventually I had chosen a recount that really hurt. As I was writing, I could still feel the pain at point that had taken placed. Will Time really heal the wound? My answer is definite NO.

People always say let's the time heal the wound. Perhaps, the reason for this is that as time goes, as long as you do not expose the wound, you are not hurt. However, when the time comes that the wound needs to be exposed, the pain is still there. Whether it is still as hurt as before, maybe not, but the pain is definitely still there. Believe me.

I did tried very hard to forget the existence of the wound but i just failed to do so. The wound is still with me till the day I leave. Perhaps, I am too negative and gray.

Just like friendship, this is also something that I do not trust and believe as I grow older and older. There was once I scrolled my mobile contacts, and realized that no one I could share exclude my family contacts. Perhaps, my life has been too dull and isolated.

There was once a thought strike me, if I would be depart from this world suddenly, who will grieve for me? My answer was beside my family, I could not think of any other. Haha... am I very pitiful? Well, I was fine with that.

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you spend as little as possible.

You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.

Your Dominant Thinking Style:

Modifying Super logical and rational, you consider every fact available to you. You don't make rash decisions and are rarely moved by emotion. You prefer what's known and proven - to the new and untested. You tend to ground those around you and add stability.

Your Secondary Thinking Style:

Experimenting You're all about looking at the facts, and you could always use more of them. You see life as your lab - and you're always trying out new things, people, and ideas. The master of mix and match, you're always coming up with unique combinations. You are good at getting a group to reach consensus.

I got this mood analysis test from a friend's blog.
I took it out of curious and find it about 90% accurate.

http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/index.cfm

Your #1 Match: ISTJ

The Duty Fulfiller You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done. You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings. Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you. Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy. You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer.

Your #2 Match: ISFJ

The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal. A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways. In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music. You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

According to the personality test... they think... I am best described using these words

introverted, secretive, reclusive, tough, non social, observer, fearless, solitary, libertarian, detached, does not like to lead, outsider, abides the rules, mind over heart, good at saving money, does not like to stand out, does not make friends easily, self sufficient, not aggressive, likes the unknown, unconcerned with external opinion, strong, abstract, independent, very intellectual, analytical, high self control

I got this extract from my friend's blog; which applicable to me too.

曖昧是什麼 

曖昧~

 曖昧是，比好朋友再親一點，但比情人遠一點。

曖昧是彼此有感覺，然而，這種感覺不足以叫你們切切實實的發展一段正式的關係。

曖昧是明白人生有太多的無奈，現實有太多的限制。

你知道沒有可能，但又捨不得放手。

曖昧是有進一步的衝動，卻沒有進一步的勇氣。

曖昧是一方永遠不說，另一方就永遠裝作不懂。

於是一方永遠沈默，一方永遠裝傻。

曖昧是，她不是你的情人，但她似乎比你的情人更關心你和了解你。

曖昧是，天冷時，感冒時有一個會在晚上傳訊息特意提你服藥，

叫你多穿點、蓋好被早點睡的普通朋友。

曖昧是，半夜你睡不著，卻可以放心打電話給他聊天的普通朋友。

曖昧是，當你遇到問題解決不了的時候，

你找不到你的女朋友，或者不能問女朋友的，你第一個便會想起她。

曖昧是，每當他提起她的另一半時，妳會萬箭穿心，但妳也希望他幸福。

曖昧是，你明明知道問他你的愛情的問題會令他擔心、

甚至會令他難過，但你除了他卻不大知道要問誰。

曖昧是甜津津又同時酸溜溜的。往往從未開始，已叫人不安，患得患失。

曖昧是，常常掙扎彼此關係。你怕透明化之後，

你既得不到一個情人，卻又失去了一個知心好友。

曖昧是，見不到她時，你會掛念她。

見到的時候，又會覺得還好。

曖昧是，兩個人都會互相猜度。

她是不是已經暗示了甚麼？我是不是自作多情?

曖昧 ~這種關係存在友情之間

是一種很特別的朋友 是一種默契的朋友

不近 也不遠，不多情也不無情

最好的朋友是那一種，能夠讓你坐在鞦韆上，不發一言，

然後靜靜地一起離開，感覺就是從未有過最好的對話。