Ponder in Life

Will Time really heal the wound?

2008-07-21T21:30:00.002+08:00

2 weeks ago, I was required to write an essay based on personal recount. I had been trying to recall a recount that I could write easily. However, eventually I had chosen a recount that really hurt. As I was writing, I could still feel the pain at point that had taken placed. Will Time really heal the wound? My answer is definite NO.

People always say let's the time heal the wound. Perhaps, the reason for this is that as time goes, as long as you do not expose the wound, you are not hurt. However, when the time comes that the wound needs to be exposed, the pain is still there. Whether it is still as hurt as before, maybe not, but the pain is definitely still there. Believe me.

I did tried very hard to forget the existence of the wound but i just failed to do so. The wound is still with me till the day I leave. Perhaps, I am too negative and gray.

Just like friendship, this is also something that I do not trust and believe as I grow older and older. There was once I scrolled my mobile contacts, and realized that no one I could share exclude my family contacts. Perhaps, my life has been too dull and isolated.

There was once a thought strike me, if I would be depart from this world suddenly, who will grieve for me? My answer was beside my family, I could not think of any other. Haha... am I very pitiful? Well, I was fine with that.

Who's the True You?

2005-06-13T09:08:00.000+08:00

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you spend as little as possible.

You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.

Who's the True You?

What's Your Thinking Style?

2005-05-30T09:00:00.000+08:00

Your Dominant Thinking Style:

Modifying

Super logical and rational, you consider every fact available to you.
You don't make rash decisions and are rarely moved by emotion.

You prefer what's known and proven - to the new and untested.
You tend to ground those around you and add stability.

Your Secondary Thinking Style:

Experimenting

You're all about looking at the facts, and you could always use more of them.
You see life as your lab - and you're always trying out new things, people, and ideas.

The master of mix and match, you're always coming up with unique combinations.
You are good at getting a group to reach consensus.

What's Your Thinking Style?

Mood Analysis Test

2005-05-18T09:00:00.000+08:00

I got this mood analysis test from a friend's blog.
I took it out of curious and find it about 90% accurate.

http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/index.cfm

Personality Type

2005-05-03T09:00:00.000+08:00

Your #1 Match: ISTJ

The Duty Fulfiller

You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done. You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings. Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you. Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy.

You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer.

Your #2 Match: ISFJ

The Nurturer

You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal. A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways. In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music. You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.

You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

What's Your Personality Type?

Personality Test

2005-04-28T09:00:00.000+08:00

According to the personality test... they think... I am best described using these words

introverted, secretive, reclusive, tough, non social, observer, fearless, solitary, libertarian, detached, does not like to lead, outsider, abides the rules, mind over heart, good at saving money, does not like to stand out, does not make friends easily, self sufficient, not aggressive, likes the unknown, unconcerned with external opinion, strong, abstract, independent, very intellectual, analytical, high self control

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	33%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	73%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	60%
Empathy	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Religious	\|\|	10%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|	16%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Food indulgent	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Female cliche	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%

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曖昧是什麼

2005-03-31T09:00:00.000+08:00

I got this extract from my friend's blog; which applicable to me too.

曖昧是什麼

曖昧~

曖昧是，比好朋友再親一點，但比情人遠一點。

曖昧是彼此有感覺，然而，這種感覺不足以叫你們切切實實的發展一段正式的關係。

曖昧是明白人生有太多的無奈，現實有太多的限制。

你知道沒有可能，但又捨不得放手。

曖昧是有進一步的衝動，卻沒有進一步的勇氣。

曖昧是一方永遠不說，另一方就永遠裝作不懂。

於是一方永遠沈默，一方永遠裝傻。

曖昧是，她不是你的情人，但她似乎比你的情人更關心你和了解你。

曖昧是，天冷時，感冒時有一個會在晚上傳訊息特意提你服藥，

叫你多穿點、蓋好被早點睡的普通朋友。

曖昧是，半夜你睡不著，卻可以放心打電話給他聊天的普通朋友。

曖昧是，當你遇到問題解決不了的時候，

你找不到你的女朋友，或者不能問女朋友的，你第一個便會想起她。

曖昧是，每當他提起她的另一半時，妳會萬箭穿心，但妳也希望他幸福。

曖昧是，你明明知道問他你的愛情的問題會令他擔心、

甚至會令他難過，但你除了他卻不大知道要問誰。

曖昧是甜津津又同時酸溜溜的。往往從未開始，已叫人不安，患得患失。

曖昧是，常常掙扎彼此關係。你怕透明化之後，

你既得不到一個情人，卻又失去了一個知心好友。

曖昧是，見不到她時，你會掛念她。

見到的時候，又會覺得還好。

曖昧是，兩個人都會互相猜度。

她是不是已經暗示了甚麼？我是不是自作多情?

曖昧 ~這種關係存在友情之間

是一種很特別的朋友是一種默契的朋友

不近也不遠，不多情也不無情

最好的朋友是那一種，能夠讓你坐在鞦韆上，不發一言，

然後靜靜地一起離開，感覺就是從未有過最好的對話。

What Angel Are You?

2005-03-21T09:00:00.000+08:00

Take the quiz: "What Angel Are You?"

Sky Angel
You are the Sky Angel.You are calm, peaceful and serene.It can take an eternity to make you angry, but you can be very distructive on a whim.You can be slow to make friends, but you will stick by somone through thick and thin, and won't betray them, like the night.You like blues and whites, pastely colours.You are also atracted to birds, as they share your domain.

What kind of girl I am

2005-02-04T09:00:00.000+08:00

You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy at times but friendly, and you are never weak and always independent. You are incredibly intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a talent for many things (sports, music, art). You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy the simple things. Like hanging out with friends and watching movies at home. But you're sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just can't seem to break into the crowd and be noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing and speak out when you have more to say. Don't hide behind your books and sports and computer, get out there and get noticed. You also have deep desires in life and feel vunerable and alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What helps me to express feelings and dreams that I can't say to people, is through my writting.
Maybe you should try.

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My Zodiac Sign

2004-12-13T12:30:00.001+08:00

You are 60% Sagittarius

How much do you match your zodiac sign?

Pain@Work

2004-07-28T17:22:00.000+08:00

Recently my work is really giving me lots of headache. I have design my application in such a way, which is flexible and ease for future enhancement.

Meanwhile, I am working on the extraction a parent class from an exiting class to inherit so to support for inheritance, which is a big pain.

Just wonder, I can finish my application before my contract end in August.

真相与无知

2004-07-22T15:15:00.011+08:00

昨晚（21-Jul)看了卫斯理与律政新人王，又有很多想法涌近来。

做人到底应该是无知好呢，还是什么到要知道真相好呢？事实的真相到底又有多重要呢？因为很多时候往往事实的真相都并非自己所期望的一样，那到时当知道事实的真相又是一个痛苦。

所以我觉得人真得很莫名其妙。

HongKong trip in August

2004-07-20T12:18:00.000+08:00

Yooh finally got a draft version of the itinerary for the coming in August to HongKong. This time round, I will need to go to more places than the previous round, which I went in December, 2000 duing the Chirstmas season.

Therefore, I will ensure that the time is fully utilized. Furthermore this time round, I will be going to Shenzhen for 1 full day.

I want to do lots of shopping as well as sight seeing. Things to look out for are like: clothes, movie or dramas vcds, old master q comic books and vcds, interesting japanese stuff, and so more.

My Blog setting

2004-07-19T14:44:00.000+08:00

Today is Monday blue.

This morning I have been asking my friend about setting a domain name with storage space. It is because I do not wish to use the templates available by Blogger.com, is too boring and dull. Although I knew I could get templates from BlogSkins.com, however they might subjected to editing; which I found troublesome to do the editing as I might not be able to use the template directly.

Therefore, I am still thinking on what else I can do.

Headache@Work

2004-07-16T17:26:00.000+08:00

For these few days at work, I have been trying hard to work out the design of my working system moving on to phase B. Having lots of things to bear in mind, lots of flexiblity, ease of maintenance and code understanding, I have been seeing stars with my design diagrams.

Too many things to handle and take care of the existing running code and structure, it really giving me big headache.

自己命运的展控权

2004-07-10T10:38:00.000+08:00

昨晚(9-Jul)看了罗家良的卫斯理，就然我觉得人的命运其实也不完全展控在自己的手里。

如果是命中注定的，它终究会发生，不管如何阻止，他始终是会发生。就像一句话：有缘千里来相会，无缘对面也不相识。

就好像一切冥冥中已经注定了。

那到底自己的命运自己又能展控多少呢？

做人真奇怪

2004-07-09T14:32:00.000+08:00

我觉得做人真得很奇怪。人与人之间的相处真得很难。人到了不同的阶段自然就会有不同的人在此停留。朋友就好像是过客，不会停留的太久。

是否要了解一个人真得很难？是不是越了解那个人，就真得越容易相处呢？世事难料，何况一个人的个性也会因为他所处在的环境而有所改变。

人的想法也会因为自己看到或经历过的许许多多的事情而有所改变。我想除了家庭之外，许多事情的改变或发生毅然是一个人无法去展控的。